February 9, 2005

Mid Life Crisis

I have always said that we only have one shot at life, we might as well make the most of it. We are priviledged to be able to think and interact, even if we are here for just a minute period of infinity.
Being monogamous definitely isn't making the most out of life. I don't care what anyone says, doing the ssme woman year in and year out is not living life to the fullest. Our brains are not evolved to accept pairing off with a mate for life. Love has nothing to do with it. Its a compromise. But why do I compromise? Why put restraints on myself and worry about hurting someones feelings? I'm such a hypocrite. I'll be dead soon enough, the last 10 years have just blown by. I'm 44 now. No children. Its kind of too late for that.
I don't have the answers. Well I do, but it means making radical changes. I guess I'll just keep kicking the can and hitting my head against the wall.